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Henri

2 weeks ago

On the couch, laptop on my lap, typing, waiting, planning, thinking. That’s been my view over the past few weeks.

In my previous message, I shared that I’ve been working on a new project, my new hyperfocus. If you’ve seen my documentary, you know that toward the end I talk about how, with the help I received, I started gaining more control over my life.
One of the things that really helped me with that was learning how to plan in a way that works for me, breaking down overwhelming projects into smaller, manageable pieces. And that’s something I still do.

Over the years, I’ve gone pretty deep into productivity. I’ve tried a lot of software and different methods. I enjoy working with technology like that, but those apps never really work the way I want them to. There are a lot of them, but they’re either too complex and built for big teams, or too simple. I couldn’t find one that actually fit the way I think and work.

And now that AI has gotten so good at writing code, I suddenly saw a way to build that app myself, even though I’m not really a programmer. So here I am, working out concepts, prompting, fixing bugs, figuring out the design, coming up with names, and so on.

And slowly, that’s turning into an app where I can plan and organize my life, business, music, and other projects in a simple, visual way. From bigger yearly goals down to small daily tasks, without losing the overview.

The first version of the app is getting close. I’ve started testing and refining it, and after that I want to see if it’s something that could be useful for others as well.

Henri

2 months ago

It happened again. The intention to make a lot of music after the documentary release was there. But then I got an idea for something else I had to follow through on.

I tend to go into hyperfocus mode when that happens, and it did again now. It’s a really exciting idea, which I’ll share more about once the full concept is clear. ✨

That doesn’t mean I didn’t do anything else. I hoped that focus would be on music, but that didn’t happen, unfortunately. That’s a funny thing about life. Having the time and space for something doesn’t mean the focus or inspiration will show up for the thing you want.

Still, I did work on music. I wrote some fragments for song ideas. I also submitted the documentary to a couple of film festivals (for which I won’t hear anything back until August), and prepared the website for the re-release of the documentary. 🎬

Which will happen next week!

Autism Week (Saturday, 28th of March until the 4th of April) feels like the perfect moment to share the documentary with a wider audience. That’s also why I created the teaser above.

I also will continue looking for collaborations with autism organizations or other organizations for which this documentary could be valuable for. So more updates on the documentary will follow!

Now I’ll go back into hyperfocus on this new idea and, hopefully, also find my way back to music again. 😊

Henri

3 months ago

Grey skies
Black and white
Snow is listening

Wings stay cold
Even now
Spring is whispering

Henri

January 28

I’m honestly a bit overwhelmed by the amount of interest you have shown in the documentary. I didn’t expect that. I thought it would be a quiet release, but so many of you signed up and took the time to watch.

I received many thoughtful and special messages and that really means a lot to me.
I don’t really know what to say.
Thank you so much ❤️!

A few of the words you shared:
“I was deeply moved.”
“It felt like I was sitting on your couch, watching and listening.”
“I recognized my own story almost completely.”
“So vulnerable and honest.”
“Beautiful, intense and very loving.”
“This translation of your inner world is incredibly helpful and recognizable.”
“Very well made, visually and emotionally.”
“This will help many people understand autism better.”

The documentary will go offline tomorrow. This is because I want to take time to figure out how I should continue. To share the documentary and its message, and I want to submit the documentary to some film festivals and look for collaborations with organizations, etc. For that, the documentary can’t be online publicly. So keep an eye out here, on social media, or via the newsletter to not miss anything!

Henri

January 22

It’s finally here! Grab the popcorn and turn on your TV. From now on you have one week (until January 29th 17:00 UTC+1 ) to watch my documentary before it goes offline again, so don’t miss it!

The documentary is in Dutch, but you can turn on the English subtitles. For the full experience, I would recommend watching the movie on the big screen and with good audio.

I’m so thankful to everyone who made this documentary possible. I hope it offers recognition and understanding to those who often feel like a stranger on the road, and that they’re not alone. I’m also very curious what this movie does for you. So want to share something after watching it or have a question? Feel free to send a message.

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Henri

January 9

A new year for me always means reflecting, planning, and new goals. Having these goals also helps me to get through these dark and wintery days after the holidays, although the snowy views in my hometown of Amersfoort are absolute helpfull too. ☃️

Henri

December 12, 2025

In the past few years, my mind has mostly been in “finish and move on” mode. The documentary demanded a lot of attention and took up much of my mental space. Now that this phase is done, I finally feel room to return to songwriting and music production. But I’ve realized I need to relearn how I create.

I enjoy designing systems for myself and setting goals, but sparking creativity and generating new ideas requires something more. It calls for sensitivity to the outside world, a sense of play, emotional awareness, and curiosity.

So I’m consciously building a new creative space. Taking time to rest, freewrite, play and sing freely, and pick up small ideas without judging whether they’re “useful”. It feels a bit unfamiliar at times, sometimes even uncomfortable, but it brings me back to my own creative voice.

Henri

November 18, 2025

I can hardly believe it, but… the documentary is finished! 🤩

Around five years ago I asked myself: where do you even begin when you want to make a documentary about something that has shaped your entire life?

I had a vague idea, but nothing concrete. With the help of documentary maker and mentor Susanne Opstal, I created a film plan that clarified the core of my story. And together with cameraman/Director of Photography Bart Martens, I was able to shape it visually in the way I had imagined. 🎬

Then the real challenge began. Filming interviews, cinematic scenes and a music video (Hello Fear). The edit became an intensive puzzle of refining and rewriting. Music, sound design and color grading finally gave the film exactly the layers and atmosphere it needed. Now that it’s finished, I’m genuinely very happy with the result.

This thirty-minute documentary is not only about my autism or my life story. 🌍 It shows what it’s like when you process the world differently, how that feels on the inside, and what it means in daily life — for yourself and for the people around you.

It’s a personal film about fear, overstimulation, and the search for a way forward in this complicated world.

I hope the film will be meaningful to those who watch it. That it offers insight, recognition, or simply a new perspective on something that often remains invisible.

Before I can share it, there are still a few things to finish. I’m working on the artwork and the trailer, and if possible, I’d like to organise a small premiere. But after that, it’s finally time.

I can’t wait to share the film with you! 😊