A new year for me always means reflecting, planning, and new goals. Having these goals also helps me to get through these dark and wintery days after the holidays, although the snowy views in my hometown of Amersfoort are absolute helpfull too. ☃️
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In the past few years, my mind has mostly been in “finish and move on” mode. The documentary demanded a lot of attention and took up much of my mental space. Now that this phase is done, I finally feel room to return to songwriting and music production. But I’ve realized I need to relearn how I create.
I enjoy designing systems for myself and setting goals, but sparking creativity and generating new ideas requires something more. It calls for sensitivity to the outside world, a sense of play, emotional awareness, and curiosity.
So I’m consciously building a new creative space. Taking time to rest, freewrite, play and sing freely, and pick up small ideas without judging whether they’re “useful”. It feels a bit unfamiliar at times, sometimes even uncomfortable, but it brings me back to my own creative voice.

I can hardly believe it, but… the documentary is finished! 🤩
Around five years ago I asked myself: where do you even begin when you want to make a documentary about something that has shaped your entire life?
I had a vague idea, but nothing concrete. With the help of documentary maker and mentor Susanne Opstal, I created a film plan that clarified the core of my story. And together with cameraman/Director of Photography Bart Martens, I was able to shape it visually in the way I had imagined. 🎬

Then the real challenge began. Filming interviews, cinematic scenes and a music video (Hello Fear). The edit became an intensive puzzle of refining and rewriting. Music, sound design and color grading finally gave the film exactly the layers and atmosphere it needed. Now that it’s finished, I’m genuinely very happy with the result.

This thirty-minute documentary is not only about my autism or my life story. 🌍 It shows what it’s like when you process the world differently, how that feels on the inside, and what it means in daily life — for yourself and for the people around you.
It’s a personal film about fear, overstimulation, and the search for a way forward in this complicated world.
I hope the film will be meaningful to those who watch it. That it offers insight, recognition, or simply a new perspective on something that often remains invisible.
Before I can share it, there are still a few things to finish. I’m working on the artwork and the trailer, and if possible, I’d like to organise a small premiere. But after that, it’s finally time.
I can’t wait to share the film with you! 😊


Autumn vibes 🍂

Pretty (windy) Edinburgh.
Perfect place for a honeymoon/trip and my first time flying 😱.
It was overwhelming, but beautiful still!


New Release: Next to Me
I once believed I’d never get married, or even find love. I worried I wasn’t good enough, that I’d never find someone who truly fit with me. Movies and social media often made me think love had to look like a perfect fairytale.
Over the years, though, I’ve discovered something different.
Spending time with my (now) husband has shown me what truly matters: feeling safe, being fully yourself, and having someone you can trust to be by your side through life’s ups and downs.
Love isn’t an ideal to chase.
It is the reality of sharing life, together.


Some snapshots. This summer, I took things a bit slower and mostly worked on whatever I had the energy for at the moment. And I really enjoyed it! Since I stopped all my other work, I’ve still been figuring out a structure that works for me: a structure for working on projects, being creative, and just handling everyday things. And of course, making sure I don’t demand too much of myself (which I tend to do 😉). It’s a bit of a puzzle and takes some trial and error, but things are moving in the right direction!
I did finish a new song that I’ll be sharing with you next month!







































